Prayers for Kick, Kick, Kicks!

As any normal hypochondriac, and just plain maniac- I am constantly worried about this baby! I woke up today and decided that I haven't felt him kick in awhile (even though I am sure he had just kicked me...... )I got so nervous, I was thinking horrible things, and wondering if I could call my Doctor and ask if I could come in to listen to the heart. I wanted to make sure that everything was ok. I instantly started thinking of how I would tell Lucas, after he got so on board with this baby being a boy, and how I would let my family know he was no longer moving. I sat there on my bed and tried to collect myself- in the five minutes I had until I HAD to be in the shower. I prayed that God would let me feel my little baby, just to make sure everything was ok. At about 8:30 AM about 2 1/2 hours after I had asked God for my sign, he started kicking- and has continued to do so all day today. I don't normally enjoy the kicks, butterflies in an aquarium- (as my Mom described it) is not how I think it feels. I think it kind of hurts and is a little annoying- which I am sure is terrible for me to say. But I am being honest- they can kind of hurt, well everything kind of hurts me lately. I used to think I had a high pain tolerance, but I am beginning to think I may possibly be the biggest baby in the entire world.


I have already decided not to even think about labor until further notice. And by everything hurts, I mean I am starting to get uncomfortable. Even though I do not think I am showing, I still think I look chubby like I eat too much- my sister kind of told me I was delusional today, everything is starting to get uncomfortable. I can't believe it only gets worse! I started swelling last week- my ankles were huge Thursday evening and all day Friday. But it went away soon after, just drinking lots of water and keeping my feet up. I put a cardboard box under my desk, so they are raised up at work too! I can only wear one ring at a time though, I can either wear my engagement ring, or my wedding band- but not both right now. Last week at the Doctor I was asking him about a weird thing I noticed and I am glad he was straight up with me. He said
"Yeah, a lot of really, really weird things happen during pregnancy, woman who say it is so beautiful, I don't really get what they are talking about!" Typical man, good to know he's honest!

More and more weird thing happen all the time. Like I can't get comfortable at night in bed if I put lotion on my legs before I go to bed. I do not know why this is, and probably has nothing to do with pregnancy but I learned that the hard way! Just a warm bath before bed, to help with leg cramps, no lotion. My back is starting to hurt, and I am not sleeping well. Being a face down tummy sleeper, this left side business is a big adjustment, but I am trying to very hard because I am scared of everything that may happen if you don't- mainly physical. Like Varicrose veins, which I have googled so many times, my phone won't even let me look at information on them anymore, high blood pressure, and everything else. So left side sleeping it is. I fight with Skeeter every night, which wakes Luke up too, but she knows there is something in my belly and wants to cozy up to me and my tummy, between me and my pillows. One to grab on to and one in between my legs because I googled it, or read that it can help with something. I am a big box of knowledge right now, although I dont really know what goes with what. I just know a lot of stuff! I wake up with numbs hand every morning, but I don't think it's carpel tunnel- I think it is because I sleep with my hands under my pillow. Or that's what I am choosing to tell myself. I was trying to reach for something under my bed and so I layed down on my back on the floor to try to slip under, and realized my tummy stuck up too much or my butt stuck out too much, either way- laying on the floor on your back doesn't work at this point. Luke had to help me up. Very weird things..........

There is my rant, this is my blog, so I think it is ok to let it all out here!

- I know this is all worth it, and I can't wait to see what's next to come for me and my JJ.

(That's my new nickname for him because right now we are Jodie and Jackson living as one, so JJ! We have the same initials too, I sure do hope he doesn't have Mommy issues, but if he never wants to leave the house and get married I think I will be fine with that! )

The picture is our walls in the nursery we are trying to paint- as you can see we are getting no where fast!